Sunday, November 8, 2009

I didn't get the house!!! Grr... Oh well

Haiz...

Haizzzz...

Can't describe the feeling right now. Pissed? No. Sad?? No

Oh yes, dissapointed, that's the word. I do not understand why I hope to begin with. Or issit because the system allows you to hope for something you want? Keep getting dissapointments and changes. Probably I'm not use to be dissapointed and changing so many things. Hahaha... Crazy...




This is exactly how I am feeling right now... Hahaha


Otw to work. Love Chinese garden view from the station. Haiz... Thinking of the house again... Probably i should consider clementi after all :P. Hmm how about redhill? Or duxton?? Shut up Dzul :O

Lucky I'm gog to work, take my mind out of this topic... So demoralizing

Friday, November 6, 2009

My heart is not in sync with my mind

Been feeling sucky these past few days, lazy to do anithing. Even if I set somthing to do, I feel the void of emptiness and turn out not doing anything after that. Work been great, things that go wrong, end up being okie at the end of the day. Probably because I slow down or have different perspective in live now. I hope it would make me a better person.



Going to work... Lazy... Hahaha... I hope this phase goes out soon. It's really unhealthy.


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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Virgin post on iPhone

Wow... So much ease... Prob I post my thots over here


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Sunday, May 31, 2009

Should

Its a weird feeling. But i always keeping getting this. Probably i shouldn't have high expectations on people. But i must... at least...each person must be given a space to shine. At least a space...ehehe...

I'm very angst with couple of people i know. But when i reflect, i conclude that most of the time..i have higher expectations on them without them knowing...WHAHAHA...and most of the time when scolded them, its seem as if they done it before and i think they "should" know

"Should is a very bad word....

Should
–auxiliary verb
1. pt. of shall.
2. (used to express condition): Were he to arrive, I should be pleased.
3. must; ought (used to indicate duty, propriety, or expediency): You should not do that.
4. would (used to make a statement less direct or blunt): I should think you would apologize.

Taken from www.dictionary.com

I like to say... "U should, I think, Who do?" hehehehe

its been a great month. Looking forward for June



Reminding Me Reminding You

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Bintang Di Surga

Masih ku merasa angkuh
Terbang kenanganku jauh
Langit kan menangkapku
Walau kan terjatuh

Dan bila semua tercipta
Hanya untukku merasakan
Semua yang tercipta
Hampa hidup terasa

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak berarti

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harus ku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa

Bagai bintang di surga
Dan seluruh warna
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di surga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak berarti

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harus ku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa

Bagai bintang di surga
Dan seluruh warna
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di surga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Spartan Creed

I would not say anything for a man nor take account of him for any speed of his feet or wrestling skill he might have,

not if he had the size of a Cyclops and strength to go with it, not if he could outrun
Boreas, the North Wind of Thrace,

not if he were more handsome and gracefully formed than Tithonos, or had more
riches than Midas had, or Kinyras too,

not if he were more of a king than Tantalid Pelops, or had the power of speech and
persuasion Adrastos had,

not if he had all splendors except for a fighting spirit. For no man ever proves
himself a good man in war

unless he can endure to face the blood and the slaughter, go close against the
enemy and fight with his hands.

Here is courage, mankind's finest possession, here is the noblest prize that a young
man can endeavor to win,

and it is a good thing his city and all the people share with him when a man plants
his feet and stands in the foremost spears

relentlessly, all thought of foul flight completely forgotten, and has well trained
his heart to be steadfast and to endure,

and with words encourages the man who is stationed beside him. Here is a man
who proves himself to be valiant in war.

With a sudden rush he turns to flight the rugged battalions of the enemy, and
sustains the beating waves of assault.

And he who so falls among the champions and loses his sweet life, so blessing
with honor his city, his father, and all his people,

with wounds in his chest, where the spear that he was facing has transfixed
that massive guard of his shield, and gone through his breastplate as well,

why, such a man is lamented alike by the young and the elders, and all his city
goes into mourning and grieves for his loss.

His tomb is pointed to with pride, and so are his children, and his children's children,
and afterward all the race that is his.

His shining glory is never forgotten, his name is remembered, and he becomes an
immortal, though he lies under the ground,

when one who was a brave man has been killed by the furious War God
standing his ground and fighting hard for his children and land.

But if he escapes the doom of death, the destroyer of bodies, and wins his battle,
and bright renown for the work of his spear,

all men give place to him alike, the youth and the elders, and much joy comes his
way before he goes down to the dead.

Aging, he has reputation among his citizens. No one tries to interfere with his
honors or all he deserves;

all men withdraw before his presence, and yield their seats to him, the youth, and
the men his age, and even those older than he.

Thus a man should endeavor to reach this high place of courage with all his heart,
and so trying, never be backward in war.

Cant Sleep

Haiz... cant really sleep these few days...worst...i dun make it up!!... hahaha

i think i think too much

Monday, March 23, 2009

I Miss You

I know it hurt you
It hurt me too,
But now that you are gone,
All I know is I miss you.

You were there for so long,
I never thought you would leave.
I thought you had so many years,
waiting up your sleeve.

That day you left,
Was the saddest of my life
I remember going home,
And crying all night.

I might be selfish,
But I wish you were still here.
Or if you stayed,
For at least one more year.

I know Im not perfect,
I never will be.
But I hope your out there,
Proud of me.

You had to let go,
Even though you were holding on for so long
But theres not a day I dont think of you,
And how you were so strong.

You never complained,
Or said why me?
You just knew,
That thats the way it was meant to be.

So I just want to tell you,
Even though I still cry,
That I miss you so much,
And Im glad you said goodbye.

Saturday, March 7, 2009


Haven been blogging much, very busy lately. Wanted to blog a couple of few things.. but sux...i forgot all about it :P

Miss Australia Journey, i think i did a lot of reflection...i think whenever i go holidays...i have the opportunity to sit down and think. think straight. Miss the the SKY in Australia, the wind, the view.
Not saying that Singapore is not beautiful, im just awe of the atmosphere in Australia. Sometimes, i wonder whatever im doing right now, will be worth it.

Work is not a friend of me anymore, i think its due to the recession that we all are facing currently. i wonder how my peers are doing, and i thought i could escape it all!!

DZUL : U R A P*SSY

On the lighter note, i glad vee and mee getting the wedding preparations up to speed. will blog more on the details

Reminding U, Reminding Me
Dzul

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

If you wondering what is the soundtrack for the click. Here you go : Winds of Plague... "A Cold Day In Hell".."Anthems Of Apocalypse".

I must say, it has most of my favorite all time movies :P

1. Braveheart
2. Saving Private Ryan
3. The Last Samurai
4. Thin Red Line
5. Joan Of Arc
6. Gladiator
7. 300
8. Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
9. 13th Warrior
10. Master Of The Sea
11. Kingdom Of Heavon

God knows how many wars movie i love...!!

As Spartan King Leonidas: Give them nothing! But take from them everything!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

War


Love This Clip

sick and tired.

Sick may refer to:

Tired may refer to:

This is why i gave my alter ego name, which is french btw, LEMALADE

Le Malade means The Patient

Reason, im always sick...ever since i was in this world. Incubated since birth. Asthma Since Kindergarten, Dyslexia Since primary School....hmmm...

As time goes, i was really a fit young guy...played tennis, soccer and basketball...
But life is constantly changing. I keep changing.

Hope my plans will get better and stable. Hope i can keep my partners retention...

Friday, February 20, 2009

Did I Hurt You?




Blasted last night, didnt know the reason why...oh yah...it is because of partners not understanding the sms i sent over to them...grr...irritating. Need to be extra specific in the future. Was wondering how i have lived my life. It tooOOOo much. THinking of doing things with balance and another moment doing ONE thing and really being driven about it. HOW CAN?? while my store seem to be intact, i am crumbling into pieces. Wahaha...why oh why dzul...irritating.

A shift runing is very important. Not only you are resposible in the sales generation. Dealing with difficult customer and partners...unforseen circumstances. Food, merch, stocks , cleanliness and etc and etc.

I hope whatever things that I do, i do it with good intentions. If i ever hurt you. Im sorry. I didnt mean it.

or I did...hee :P

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sacking Someone

  1. Do you really need to sack this person?
  2. Have procedures in place and understood.
  3. Have there been warnings?
  4. Hold a meeting.
  5. Make the decision and allow for an appeal.
  6. Be fair at all times.
  7. Don't assume that you are in the right.
  8. Tell the employee his/her rights.
  9. Be aware of protected people.
  10. Recognize grey areas.
i hate my job

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Recession


Times are bad right now, i really mean it. I do not think one should really Analise on operations. Focusing on every little details. It sucks. I understand that we need to cut cost and be more productive. But the message is not even positive anymore. Its the dawn of Negativity..i can smell it!!

As i undergo this recession on my own, I did consider about others, and how might they be fairing right now. It must be hard. Really hard, even for me.

  1. Settling down to a job
  2. Marriage
  3. Getting a House
How would anyone cope? i wonder, i guess, i just have to live a day at a time. Sigh...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Doctor vs Dzul

Doctor : Dzul, you need to relax and do regular exercise

Dzul : I am doing doc, and im trying to relax too...im thinking lesser now

Doctor : THINKING is a process where you do not ever rest do you?

Dzul : thinking is part of me, if i do not think as much as im thinking right now, they why being me? and the people around me, i would not be so ahead of them if i do not think so much than them. how doc?

Doctor : i think you need to relax... and really stop thinking that much

Dzul : hmm...do you think it got to do with my life? my belief? my work?

Doctor : Each factor is important and you should find a balance within it. Are you handling too many tasks right now?

Dzul : i think its pretty ok"

Doctor : it aint pretty from where im looking over here.

Dzul : F I N E. i am doing alot than im suppose to be doing to begin with!

Doctor : then i suggest you reflect on yourself Dzul. You need too

Dzul : I did, i also do! thats why im here for a solution!

Doctor : im not your solution provider, you are. You are in control of your life. Think less, make the right decision

*by now, im going bonkers*

Dzul : whatever you say doc...




GOD, you there? i know i have sinned you...many...many times...i will take this challenge. And im going out with a bang!! Thank You, U!

Gotta Be Somebody

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

love this song

Back, wont promise will start writing again


Been awhile...haha...close to a year, what have happen so far? alot. better person? i hope so. but one thing for use. im weaker. Suddenly had the urge to post my blog. ahhaha...surprise surprise. cant believe i back from Australia. Gosh. i wish the holiday was longer :P


love the pic